I'm tired from all of this. I'm tired from this incredible fucking condition of relations with him and another him. I don't know what I should do. I can't imagine how improve this situation. CAN'T. Why did it end so? By this way, not another? Or maybe it didn't end yet... I need a help, but only I can help to myself.
I'm tired because I can't cry. I can't shout. But I want.
It's so silly... and so sad. The sorrow has surrounded a part of my heart.